Hope & Revelation

So, last night for the first time in my life, I chose NOT to eat after 8pm, truly incredible and I am so excited because I am NOT just dieting anymore, I am changing the way I live forever! It may sound funny to you but I always had this notion that once I lost all my weight, that I could go back to eating a pan of brownies, Ben and Jerry's and McDonald's. I was reading a magazine about how this girl my age had dropped 50+ pounds  and had dieted up and down her whole life and you know what she said? That you will always have a complaint about your weight, NO MATTER how much you loose, either, "It is so hard to loose the weight" or "it is so hard to keep it off", the battle doesn't end, this hit me like a ton of bricks and has totally changed my outlook on this weight loss journey of mine - wow. I am excited, energized, but I cannot do this without the support of all my friends, who will in turn I hope be praying for me. Bruce and I both want to have a few more children and for me to do that I HAVE to loose this weight, and I KNOW I CAN! I went through my closet this week removing clothes that I just didn't wear when I came across some clothes that were too small right now and I as I put them in a bag for next summer I said, I AM keeping this, because I WILL be thinner next year and will enjoy wearing it! I have never done that, so I am excited to continue to speak this over my life and can't wait for what lies ahead!

Hopeful in Spirit!

Crystal