It is GODS

  Wednesdays are a busy but good day for us, I look forward to teaching my drama class of 15+, (my largest class ever) and Bruce and I enjoy every minute of the youth group we help out with. This was a Thursday actually, it was a normal day and we decided to squeeze in an oil change before heading off to human video practice, an simple oil change that would test our faith in what we have been living for almost 2 years now.

The service man refused to change our oil due to leaking oil that was from a bad head gasket. He continued on as my head started to spin and somewhere in the conversation I heard ".....our engine would explode". Pretty dramatic I thought for a guy who changes oil everyday. He then ended the conversasion quoting us something in the thousand dollar range and ended his dramatic speech with, "...you might as well get a new vehicle". Wow, this was so much for Bruce and I to process, we drove out of the station quietly, all the while Zach asking from the back if we were going to church now.

My mind immediately went to the savings account we had been working on and thankful of it, but concerned it may not be enough. I was so thankful that we have been faithful in tithing, giving and faithful stewards in our finances. It was at that moment that I remembered the deed I signed with Bruce that gave all our earthly possessions to the Lord, at that moment I remembered, it's GOD'S VAN. He gave us this van, He keeps this van running with 138,000 miles on it and He will have HIS, way. What HIS way is at the moment remains a mystery, but I am trusting and doing what I know to do. Bruce is seeking advice from our accountability parntners and we are both in prayer for direction. 

Surprisingly, we really don't want another vehicle. The van may not be a show stopper, but when I get to heaven, I really won't care anymore that I drove a purple minivan on earth, now will I? So, I am praying the we can afford to get it repaired, BUT praying that I will trust in what GOD wills done with HIS VAN.

Thankful for the Resting Place

    It was 2 years ago now that Bruce and I had reached the bottom, life was full of stress and unrest. I remember at one point falling to the floor in the kitchen after receiving more awful news and crying endlessly, not sure if I would make it another day.

   I sit here now, a life at peace, finances secure, a beautiful home, a baby on the way and endless other blessings which would take too long to list, ah, peace sweet peace. I never thought back then that this day would ever come, but my Father is so full of grace and mercy, He allows the worse to happen for our good and then still permits blessings to flow after all of the disobedience, simply amazing. I am so thankful, not only for my heavenly Father, but for all the people that helped us get here, who encouraged us along the way. Sometimes I just want to pinch myself, is it for real, do I really deserve this? No, absolutely not, but that is what is incredible about serving our God!

So for everyone there that is at life's bottom, don't give up, don't give in, don't let go, just hang on a little longer! He is so faithful even in the darkest moments, He sees the ending, or your new beginning, keep breathing and believing!