The past few days have been pretty blah for me. I am at the library now still trying to improve this foul mood that I have been in for 2 days now. I guess it is because I am tired of not having "girl money", you know, shopping money, a known stress reliever to all of us women. It is coming up on a year now since we have been managing our finances God's way through Crown financial and now it is getting so hard when my bi-weekly allowance is nothing to speak of really. This is not to put my husband down at all for how he provides, he does.
A year ago, I was shopping, but our finances a mess, now I am the exact opposite and although there is a deep inner peace and a knowing that I am honoring the Lord with my money, I am still human and it is hard! It is hard to be so limited, it is hard when there are no extra funds to do some of the activities that I would love to do. I feel so alone in this place right now and although my life is abundantly blessed with great health, home, a wonderful son and an out of this world husband, I still struggle within.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Memories
I love a great memory and even not the best memories are okay too. I spoke with a friend of mine who I had not spoken with in many years, I finally located on her via face book and talking with her was like water to my soul. It reminded me to be thankful for who I am and not to worry so much about what others think of me, I am who I am. She has seen me at my best, my worst and still loves me just for who I am and being around her I am never put in a place to second guess myself, I love that the most! I am so blessed, blessed beyond measure to have such great friends, some closer than others, but blessed all the same. So a note to me, never apologize for who you are or what you are, because if they are your true friends, they will not try to change the person you are, but will embrace every aspect of you, not matter how dramatic it gets! :)
Crystal
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