The past few days have been pretty blah for me. I am at the library now still trying to improve this foul mood that I have been in for 2 days now. I guess it is because I am tired of not having "girl money", you know, shopping money, a known stress reliever to all of us women. It is coming up on a year now since we have been managing our finances God's way through Crown financial and now it is getting so hard when my bi-weekly allowance is nothing to speak of really. This is not to put my husband down at all for how he provides, he does.
A year ago, I was shopping, but our finances a mess, now I am the exact opposite and although there is a deep inner peace and a knowing that I am honoring the Lord with my money, I am still human and it is hard! It is hard to be so limited, it is hard when there are no extra funds to do some of the activities that I would love to do. I feel so alone in this place right now and although my life is abundantly blessed with great health, home, a wonderful son and an out of this world husband, I still struggle within.
3 comments:
I truly understand how hard it is for you! Every one needs a little 'mad' money! You and Bruce have stayed faithful and God WILL hear your heart's cry. I will pray for a special blessing to come your way!!
I know it doesn't change anything, but you probably don't remember my down times and how very little I had when I was homeschooling you girls. I was SO embarrassed to be seen in public!! Between my self-cut hair and my bright turquoise size 24 culottes, I shed MANY, MANY tears!!
Although it was REALLY hard, if I could go back, I wouldn't change a thing! Not because I am so spiritual, but simply because I know that "He does ALL things well" and I trust that he allowed what was best for me at the time.
I know you trust Him in your heart as well and our humanity is our struggle! He knows that too Crystal and WILL give you a special 'love token' to remind you that He knows where you are!!
I hope I have made you smile, because I love you and remind you that, "this too shall pass"!
LOVE,
Mom :)
Crystal,
I understand. It is very difficult to make financial sacrifices to do things God's way. But, ultimately, it is very much worth it. Thank you for being brave enough to blog about this subject.
Dawn
I know that this is not an easy time, but there is so much blessing in obedience. I am really proud of you for making good decisions, even when they are very hard. It is not easy to do at all. This may just be a season that will pass, but the lessons that you learn during this time (which are about so much more than money) will be valuable the rest of your life. Hang in there! The Lord sees you.
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